"Learning to Sign" - Pt I ... in the Name of the Father

(This prayer is part I of  praying the sign of the cross while linking the persons of the Trinity to the qualities of the archetypal energies.  In my imagination and configuration, God the Father is the magician or shaper)

In the name of the Father ...
The One who knows
Who is hidden,
the great Shaper ... creating out of beautiful chaos.
the One who heals the blind ...
for seeing is - in large measure - how we are healed.

To breathe and know who's breathing,

O Father, help me to see and to be and to breath,
fully, freely,

Unattached to life or death,
success or failure.

To be where nothing matters except being.

For an hour to rest ...
to put down my thinking,

Unattached to my own thoughts or judgments,
right or wrong,

For a few minutes maybe?
Imagine ... not having to solve anything.
To be in a place where nothing needs to be fixed,
nor managed, not thought about.

But it can all be.  As I can be.
Where right and wrong are real (maybe), but don't matter -
at least for a few minutes.

Where I stop categorizing and selecting parts of reality;
trying to change or exclude the ones I don't like -
preserving only the parts that suit me.

Where I let go of thinking,
of thoughts ...

Into the land of "no-need," Silence leads me.
I begin to feel more myself - though my 'I' is very much up in the air.

Yet, it seems odd ... to come into the Garden of Grace,
through the Father ... the Knower ...
and begin to surrender 'the knowing' ... the gift of thinking ... to let go of thoughts.

Still - it seems easy to do - natural --
this letting go ...
to where My Self is no longer connected to my cleverness and how right I am;
(or how wrong someone else is.)

To where I am freer than I knew was possible.

Could it be the Father ... the Shaper and Healer ... is more about letting go than knowing.

Is this my deeper Self ... the Father in me - with me ... letting go?

It's not even me that's doing the letting go.

Unbelievable, yet somehow true and plain to see.
My life is not really about me at all ...

So be it!  Amen!

... and in the name of the Son (to be continued)